It’s been a while…

I thought my absence from this blog reflected having more pressing things to attend to (with school and work being back in full swing) but I realized this afternoon that it might be a reflection of the larger trend of not prioritizing my own recovery or self-care. With school once again providing a competitive atmosphere [...]

I didn’t know it at the time, but this is why I stuck around. To feel the warmth of the setting sun bathe my skin. To drive home from dinner with a great friend with the windows down, a stomach full of spinach dip, and a heart full of love. Not to know where the [...]

Rolling over in bed this morning, Thinking “I don’t want to do this”. Chatting with the cab driver, Realizing how lucky I truly am. Sitting on the bus, Struck with the uncertainty of it all. Considering the old ways I used to find “control”. Scrambling through airport security, Smiling at cheerful David behind the desk, [...]

Don’t leave a trace Don’t want any crumbs Like we don’t want any more holes in the wall. Chew quietly, But the right things, But not too much. Don’t walk on your heels, Your presence is too loud. we don’t want drinking So that means no cutlery clinking. We don’t want lies, So no speaking. [...]

“I Feel Fat”

Today in group we discussed whether or not we thought "fat" was a bad word, and boy were there some different opinions on the matter. First of all, I think it's undeniable that as a culture we have demonized the word fat. I also think our relationship with it is entirely confused (and I personally can't [...]

Hindsight

[Potential CW] It's often hard to honour a commitment to someone you dislike, So sometimes it's easier to think of self-care and healing as honouring the "Me" who got me here. Doing it for my younger self who was afraid, confused, and alone, but who held on despite it all. The child who blew out [...]