keeper of the keys

It's a difficult thing to do - to take responsibility for your future without shaming yourself for your past. It's not easy to welcome what I know now without turning around and feeling guilty for not seeing before. It's been hard for me to grasp that moving forward doesn't in any way invalidate where I [...]

The Ride

So I recently finished a body image support group and had to go in for a general post-program check-in. I'm doing everything I'm supposed to. Honestly! I'm eating well and regularly, using skills, and establishing a somewhat balanced routine. I'm ticking all the right boxes and getting pats on the back ... but part of [...]

Steady as She Goes

Hi everyone! Sorry for being relatively inactive on this blog for a while. I actually still have several topics lined-up that I'm keen to write about, but I keep doubting myself and my "right" to discuss complicated issues. My inner saboteur (as RuPaul would call it) has been acting up. So in the spirit of [...]

Rolling over in bed this morning, Thinking “I don’t want to do this”. Chatting with the cab driver, Realizing how lucky I truly am. Sitting on the bus, Struck with the uncertainty of it all. Considering the old ways I used to find “control”. Scrambling through airport security, Smiling at cheerful David behind the desk, [...]