Most of my blog now focuses on sharing skills (amongst personal anecdotes) about healing from mental illness. However, a big part of my life was spent NOT in active recovery and I know there are many out there in the same boat.
Recovering from an eating disorder is a difficult thing. Our motivation to get better can change constantly from day-to-day, even hour to hour. One day we may feel gung-ho ready to go and the next, we might be reminiscing about symptoms.
This new blog series explores this uncertainty about preparing for recovery. I will be sharing a series of activities that allow you to reflect on where you’ve been, where you’re at, and where you hope to be.
Sometimes just making space for contemplation can be enough to help us to wrap our minds around the ambiguity of living with an eating disorder. Whether or not you’re preparing for, in the middle of, or not yet considering recovery – these prompts are aimed to provide you with a chance to reflect without the pressure to change.
There are many aspects that influence whether someone is capable of change. Availability and accessibility of treatment are big ones. Our willingness to change however, is something we can more easily explore on our own. Through this series of posts I hope to provide you with an opportunity to toss around the idea of healing, because you owe yourself that much.
I’m not asking you to commit to recovery. I’m not even sharing techniques for navigating that road. I’m merely offering a chance to reflect and asking that you take it. For yourself. For others. For “fun”. Maybe this helps you find your motivation. Maybe you realize you’re not in a space to make any changes just yet. No matter, these are resources you can come back to whenever you want, as many times as you need.
I will however note that the aim of this these posts to discuss mental illness with honesty and in doing so participants might encounter content that can trigger an adverse reaction. I encourage you to consider only what feels best to you and to consult with your doctor, medical professional, mental health practitioner, and/or support team before doing anything that might jeopardize your physical, emotional, spiritual or mental health.
So without further ado, this episode of Readiness will allow you to reflect on the role your eating disorder has played in your life.
Despite mental illness not being a choice, these maladaptive coping mechanisms often evolve to fulfill particular needs in our lives which can change over time.
How has your eating disorder been helpful for you and how has it been harmful?
Here’s a sheet to get you thinking about this topic. I would really recommend writing your ideas down – it helps process our ideas and make sense of our experiences.