blogging

helps me hear my own thoughts.

I’m more confident with graphite, ink, or keys than I am with speech.

I can express what I’m too afraid to say.

You can’t hear my voice shake in text on a screen.

No one can interrupt me when I type. No one speaks over me. I don’t have to fight to be heard.

Instead I’ll send my words out into cyberspace, where “no one can hear you scream”.

I’m frustrated at feeling like I’m not heard or understood.

Like I’m Overlooked or ignored.

I’m angry that I let Numbers of likes and followers bother me

This post might act in rebellion to that.

I guess the point is that I do this for me

So this little rant makes the cut after all.

12 thoughts on “blogging

  1. Hey there. I’ve been blogging since October 2016 and still have only 58 followers, so you may see that 290 are nothing to sneeze at! As you say, keep doing it for you, for yours is the opinion that counts. Btw I totally relate to feeling squelched by others — even shouted down — when trying to express myself. Before starting my blog, I had the recurring dream of having to speak with my mouth sewn shut, or with a mouth full of marbles. I would wake myself attempting to shout. Recently I disowned my whole family for being controlling and just plain evil… Remember, Jill, that absolutely no one has the right to gag you. Not in this or any country on earth. Stick by your guns and say the F word if you have to. The essence is freedom (another F word!) of speech, and in the United States it’s our First Amendment right. There are those who believe in shooting others’ Constitutional rights with a gun. These are proponents of the Second Amendment, the right to bear arms. Verily I say to you, they have their reward! The morons who pack pistols in public places (pfth, pfth!) think the sword mightier than the pen, but my friend, it’s up to you and me to put their ignorance in its place. That’s my tuppence and have a powerful day!

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    1. Wow thank you so much for taking the time to leave this empowering comment! I’m glad you too found this space to express yourself. In some ways it helps me build confidence to stop biting my tongue in real life.

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  2. It seems like an inevitable part of the blogging process to go through periodic spurts of feeling unheard and statistically inadequate. There have been many occasions when I have slid into that hole and had to forcefully haul myself out by bringing it back to the purpose, that writing is for me.

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  3. Know your writings are value & appreciated Jill, these are often challenging topics, I speak from experience, so muchisimas gracias for having the courage and integrity to be out there engaging people and communities in these difficult conversations. Hugs | LCA

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  4. I recognise so much of myself in your writing 🙂 I too often have that feeling of being ‘unheard’ – its something that has cropped up throughout my adult life and something that ends up getting talked about a lot in therapy! But I think with writing, and especially blogging, it gives us that safe space to get all of these thoughts and emotions out. I try not to get too wrapped up in the statistics, but it is difficult, each new follower or new ‘love’ is a little glimmer of someone saying ‘I’ve heard you’ – and when you have felt so unheard, thats really encouraging.

    I hope that the more follows and comments and loves that you get encourage you to write more and to use your voice 🙂 It seems to me like you have some things to say that are really worth hearing x

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    1. Thank you for this comment! Trying to use my voice is definitely something I’m working on as well. I’m so glad you’ve found writing helpful as well. Sending love x

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