Poison leeches through me,
my defences wearing thin.
My body keeps on fighting,
a civil war from within.
I try to purge myself of it –
through sweat, through tears, through blood.
The venomous thief that steals my sleep,
instead it drowns me in its flood.
I surrender myself readily,
to live is a now a fight,
I no longer know what it feels like,
to lead a life with any light.
Am I destined to search forever?
God knows that I’ve tried –
for a way to drain me of this poison,
that’s coming from inside.
Sometimes I have to ask myself,
is it something I want to find?
The toxin burns away my peace.
I am poisoned by my mind.